what to do when you are supposed to be happy and everything but you're really not? 

don't mean for this to be an emotional post or whatever but sometimes i feel so trapped and i don't know what to do or say, or pretend anymore.

i'm supposed to be having the time of my life but honestly, i'm more down than ever.

this weather is driving me crazy, i hate being in such a dry environment where heaters are making it worse than ever.

i think i have aged 10 years since coming here.