over

the funny thing about the past is that no matter how hard you try to forget it, it somehow manages to creep up on you in the most silent manner ever.

and then suddenly you find yourself looking back and feeling.... regret.

that's what happens to me anyway.

i hate thinking that you got a much better treatment from me than you deserved. i hate that i let you get away with so many things. i hate that i never gave you a chunk of my mind. i hate that you're off somewhere thinking you were the best ever, and that nothing you did was wrong. i hate how naive i was. but most of all, i hate that there is nothing that i can do about it.

it's probably too late to even bother with all these regrets, and wallowing in it once in awhile. i know that nothing good can ever come from it, but i can't just let it go like that.

i wish that i grew up and opened my mind to other things instead.

and no, it's not the same now. it was never my status, it was just you.

as much as i dislike the fact that you're getting away scot-free, it's not good for me to think about what should have been. so you know what, here's to you. i hope that you know that contrary to what you think, you need to do some growing up of your own and i hope one day if you think back on the past like i have, you will find that you did things that were wrong, and i sincerely hope you learn from it.

i'm trying my best to let this bitterness pass.

i need a spoonful of sugar to make the medicine go down.